This day is not a normal day for Jane and I, and especially for Jane. We enter into a form of "empty nest" all of a sudden. After 18 years of teaching one or more kids at home, suddenly that's over. Now what? Well, it may be all too easy to find our identity as home-schooling parents. Today only reminds me that to do so is folly, for that is NOT who we are, it's what we did. Now it's time to pursue a different phase of parenthood for a season and then chase different dreams.
That's the tough part of seeing your kids grow up, though. It's the part where you have to wrestle with yourself. Who have you become? Do you even like yourself? Do you want the same things you wanted 20 years ago? What values have changed? What life situation do you find yourself in? Some of those answers aren't so easy as one might think. Fortunately, we still have one at home - at least at night!
[For those who have been through it, your comments and suggestions could be a help to others like us at this point.]
For me, I now have to realize that I'm officially growing old. I have to help my wife, whose transition is likely far more painful than she's letting on. I believe in her and her abilities to do whatever she chooses. I want to help her accomplish another set of dreams (teaching and raising our kids was a dream that came true with resounding success!) for the back 1/2 of our lives. I want her to know that I love her very deeply. I want her to know I can't get her off my mind! I'll deal with the other questions I mentioned above later. Today, it's all about Jane!
So it's "Back to School" for many, and for me, life is a whole new ball-game with an opponent I've never faced before! Here goes!